Sunshine

I should move from this place, shake away these pityful feelings, but im stuck suprisingly to this spot where you left me.
I find myself hanging on to every thread of this tapestry we seem to have created from nothing.
I should walk away from my thoughts but they seem to follow me throughout the days. Im thankful i have this reason to smile, but the times that my life seems empty it just drives me insane. I need to adapt to being alone, theres no-one here to make it better anymore. This is my pain and i want to keep it to myself.
So whats with the urgency that is controlling these lonely hours?
I can deal with my shit or maybe that isnt so, as i scramble within myself, desperately trying to control the urge to spill myself all over you. It would be an amazing show of selfishness, even by my standards, to expect an outlet for the shit that resides in the darkest recess of my entity.
What am i expecting?
The most unexplainable notions are usually the most beautiful, but as i walk around my intentions, im afraid that i would never amount to more than a parasite on the surface of this beauty.