We had a promise made... we were in love

Precisely 47 days since you crash landed into my life...
How could the days be so few? It feels like i have been holding onto you forever. How many of those days have you been absent for? I dare not count, for its not a number that i would like to be acquainted with. I feel it will be an endless count of days until you come back.
I feel like i have lost you, these words don't come easily.
How could i lose something that was never really mine?
I found you, and within days i found myself in the conversations that followed.
We spoke all night, we spoke all day, you never wanted me to leave, and i felt the same way.
I would have forfeited sleep, work, eating, everything but you, if only i knew then that you would one day be gone.
I spent my days being consumed by your love, and consuming you, you are a nourishment that made me beautiful inside. New colours within me, beautiful colour on my face, in my smile, in my heart.
We named that colour by your name, for it was a colour that my heart had never seen before, a colour so pure and so beautiful that any other name would only take away from it.
I fear the colours are being washed away with every rain filled day that passes between us.
The rain started to fall whilst you were still here.The darkest forces were at work to take you away from me, before i ever really had you.
You told me that one day you would touch me, and of that you believed.
I told you that i could already feel you. You were all around me.
You said to think of me, to think of my touch, my voice, was to fall in love with me. You said we should take it slow and i agreed, not because i thought we should, but because i thought my cries against being rational would scare you away.
All i ever wanted was to take care of you and make you happy, but how can i do that now you are no longer here?
I was yours from the beginning and i will be yours till the end...
Until the very end of me,
Until the very end of you.
I wish that i had fought harder, i cant help but fear that this is what drove you away. Why did i deny how strong my love for you was and still is? Time isnt on our side, i knew that then and now i feel it more than ever.
You are everything.
You complete me.
I am so head over heels lost within this tangled love affair.
A love affair that i could have only dreamed of, and now it seems just like a distant dream...
I longed for you in my slumber and now i long for you in any way at all.
Must i always pray that your feelings for me still reside somewhere in that beautiful wasteland you call a heart?
I cant carry on this life of a child of nearly 24, knowing i had you, but somehow you got away.